god, am i really don't deserve?
Hi, why am i feeling so down? is it because of finally realize that im so lonely? here my loneliness doesn't mean by single in relationship and longing for a boyfriend, but, feel so empty that if the boyfriend is unavailable, im just nobody for everyone. im not belong to a group of friend, i have no specific friends to hang out and have meals together, i have no colleagues that really close in university. my best friends have their own group of friends, and thats their best friend, of me, who am i ? NOBODY. am i so worst? am i not deserve real friend in real life ? i do nothing but why its just so unfair? somebody just lies here and there , so realistic and self-centered can also have friends! is it because the boyfriend matter? do you think after having boyfriend i dont deserve for friends? is it problem with me ? if yes, why nobody tell me? i treat everyone so real hearted, but also endup like this, even my hi-bye friend can so less! i really don't know ...
