都怪我自己

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距离他上一封简讯，已经一小时了……
在这之前，我还天真的以为自己越来越了解他，直到现在，我才发现，只是自己太天真的妄想……
从来没有谁100% 了解谁~
我不知道他现在心里在想什么，不知道他几时才会回我简讯，不知道他现在在做什么，是一个人沉默，还是跟朋友玩到太开心根本就不想理我这个只会为他带来烦恼与伤心的女朋友~

我最后一封简讯，已经对他是否回我信息死了心……
我把手机放静音模式，为的是不让自己期望些什么……
但是很矛盾的我，想过其实关机比较有效果，但那样，他就真的找不到我了！！！
不行，那样我会更伤心！！！！
很没有骨气的我，隔几分钟又去看看手机有没有他的信息！！！
笨蛋！！！！　恨死自己了！！！！

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